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My Stupidity
Monday, July 26, 2010 @ 8:35 PM
It's so hypocritical, I tell you that you should cherish me as i won't always be in your life. I never thought you treated me the way i deserved. Even though I've since understood your perspective, only now do i truly see the extent of my actions. All along, it was probably I who didn't value you. Sure i loved you with all my heart and never wanted to lose you. Though i took you and your feelings for granted. I complained, demanded, expected that you always pit me before the world. I know that i was stupid in doing so and whether it was subconsciously or not doesn't matter. It was my fault. I became greedy and just wanted More and more of your love. But when i look at it now, i had all i needed. In everything i do now, one fact is clear, nobody is going to ever love me as much as you did and I'm sure still do. It is I who is the true loser. I had all i wanted, a friend who loved me to an extent that it hurt doing so, someone who wouldn't think twice to take a bullet for me, someone who put up with my insecurities, my stubborn nature and my continuous ranting of my sucky life, someone who told me he wouldn't stop loving me because i was imperfect, ... someone who cried for me. But i, with the stupidity of this realisation now, hurt the person I loved most and pushed you away from me. You were the only one who understood me, knew what it took to make me happy and forgave me for the way i act when I'm upset. Maybe it was I who didn't deserve you. Along with this realisation is one of the fact that i know I'll never lose you and just knowing that you'll love me and catch me when I fall is enough. PS. Could you get there before i fall down the stairs next time? xoxo -plenty of love- LilMiSsPeRfEcTiOn |