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Silence.
Sunday, July 4, 2010 @ 5:18 PM
Silence. “Under all speech that is good for anything there lies a silence that is better. Silence is deep as Eternity; speech is shallow as Time.” I used to be afraid of silences. When our conversations become silent, it was almost unbearable. My mind would wonder and I would find myself asking what are you thinking? Why aren’t you talking? And my insecurities would be recounted before my eyes. Silence is a conversation expressed beyond words. I never understood that until I met you. When we walk, speech isn’t necessary. The silence that I was afraid of, that I couldn’t bear suddenly became a comfortable retreat. My mind was at peace, the wondering thoughts and insecurities I felt were diminished with your presence as well as the relieving silence that came with it. But now that had changed. Today, I find myself thinking about the horrible thoughts I believed I was free of. The truth was far from it. Silence was once again my enemy. The feeling of annoyance rises up in me, I can’t seem to think straight and my problems don’t seem to be resolved. For once, I just want you all to disappear; I want to escape from this world of misery. Why does it happen every time? Just when my life gets better, when I’m happy, it all comes crashing down. I’m sick of it, sick of dealing with rollercoasters of emotions, sick of trying to control my life and most of all sick of just being around and sick of waiting for you to turn around and hopefully see me, why do I have to be the one to wait? What did I do to deserve this? Truthfully I’m sick of it all. Take it whichever way you will. I couldn’t care less. xoxo -proudly god- LilMiSsPeRfEcTiOn |