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I need to be alone
Sunday, February 6, 2011 @ 8:47 AM
Last night. 106am, What did i do to deserve this? Am that bad of a person that you all have to treat me this way? All i ask is that yous give me the time i need to recover. Is that so much to ask for? Please don't say things you don't mean. Don't pretend you'll be around, that you'll care about me. Don't make promises you can't keep. Don't get involved into my life. I know you want to help, i know you try to help. But just don't say anything, anyone. There are things i don't want to know. Let me get over things. Don't tell me things... it will just add to how emotionally unstable i am. I can control my emotions. I can get myself to recover, but i cannot control my reactions to your words. My heart breaks, not because you've changed. That doesn't bother me as much. It's life. Things change, they have before and will continue to. My heart breaks because of how you can treat me this way. I didn't ask you to care, you can if you choose to. In fact everything you do is ur choice. I don't scream, I don't shout because i don't see the need to, and how any of it will make a difference. Just don't lie to me. I don't hate you, I want you as a friend, but please be truthful to me. The truth may hurt but a lie that had been discovered will never cease bleeding. I'm human, give me that much, and give me time, don't worry that I'll hate you, i won't, not unless you betray my trust. If i can talk to you, if i want to, i trust you. Please don't betray that, please don't do anything to make me regret telling you. Because then, i would be unhappy, you would be unhappy, and above all, I'll lose you as a friend. And that's the last thing i want. I need you. I need how caring you are, how you sit and listen to what i say, how you threaten to bash people that hurt me. Losing you, all of you, any of you. would be the biggest regret of my life and would make me - i can't even count the times- more miserable than i am now. Please know that. I don't blame you, everything you do, you do for my well being, but this is something i must get over myself. But, please be at the sideline cheering me on, without all of you, i would never be truly happy. And i promise, next time. I will put your opinion above my stubbornness. I love you all. xoxo -plenty of love- |